I got SHOT Today
As I stood at the roof of my building dreading the circus that is life waiting for a promise of a midnight breeze I got SHOT.
Where?
I got shot in my conscience. How?
As Rahman's Rehna Tu was playing as background music I rested my face on the ledges of the roof and I stared at those city lights which looked like Tiny Fireflies, this was no Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone dancing to City of Stars kind of vibe, this was an anxiety induced “need some poison of choice” to reboot sort of vibe. I wanted to play a sadder song so I did hit play on Gary B Coleman’s “The Sky is Crying”, what's better than to cry over than Jazz Music?
A flashback of sorts struck me where an Abhijith scrolled through hours and hours of terrible content on Instagram, where he ate all the junk he could find, where he became a machine losing all will to explore, whose life had become a quest to find techniques to please prospective customers, who did not want to try out new recipes anymore, who had just woken up this certain morning and did not want to get up or did not have any energy to get off that bed.
IS THIS WHAT THEY CALL A BURNOUT?
The whole day just flew by, I tried ignoring a few client calls but could not gather the courage to do so as that would mean lesser money in my pockets to sustain. By the end of the day, I got up to respond to E-Mails, to delegate work and to “Get back to the Hustle”. The Hustle is a scary yet super rewarding world and is guaranteed to suck whatever remaining portions of your soul you have intact.
The world is like a straw slowly sucking all your happiness, the thicker you are the harder it is to suck your happiness, is that the reason people use the term “Thick Skin”?
As I stood in my rooftop dissatisfied with the version of myself I am today, I decided to make a few resolutions that matter. It’s pretty easy in comparison to the things many remarkable folks have done to reach their peaks of productivity and happiness.
Drink More Water, Eat Healthier, Use Beard Oil to fill those beard patches, Do not Use Instagram for more than an hour a day, Try Completing a book every week, Take better care of the skin, Workout more, Lose 10 Kilos, Yoga & Meditation, A movie every alternate day, A season in a month, A new recipe every week, Write the blog and most of all Showing up to the circus that is life without Fail.
Hey Circus, your Clowns make me laugh, they don’t Scare Me, Not One Bit
When I look back, it was great that I got Shot Today, all I have to do is recover from this deep bullet wound.
